in an interactive now. arrived in da philippines 1.5 days ago. nt as excited as usual cz i kno im nt leaving after 2 months of summer.

texting shervin ryt nw. gna meet up wid him in a few days at SBMA maybe.

last entry on dis site. it was fun writing ehre. bt ol of dis is my past so..

il make a new one fr...my...present life. ;)

wel wel. exams went well. :)

the last day of skul was...yesterday. nd it was jz depressing. da slideshow nd my LAST assembly in aes was realy sad. lots of...crying. hugged everyone goodbye/

after dat, itja me nd zee went to the big chill to get frozen yogurt. den we hung at itja;s.

at nyt we went out nd clubbing nd ol da drinking stuf fr da lst time. it seemed lyk almost ol ppl who drink nd smoke frm AES was der. so it was gud seeing everyone. including gijun nd mayb evn shervin. surprisingly, dey let him enter RPM.

we danced alllll nyt long. grinded too. dat was fun.

said goodbye to everyone again. nd yea.

dis is my last entry. we're packing 2moro.

mwah. ill miss u india. in dat weird sort of way.

leaving fr the philippines on...june 3rd. royce's bday. wow.

our first exam started yesterday. went well. BIO first! ahh!

nxt week, we stil hv exams den thursdays da last day of skul. omg. depressing. gna misssss it here!

GUY DRAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!
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okay sooooooooooooooooooooo i kno schools ending in like. well who cares. and im going throug a terrible heartbreak/break-up with royce BUT......i think GUY DRAPER is just too...cute. argh.

he's the "bully" of alll the seniors but omggggg. i think hez realllly nice.

esp during art. he helps Wan and I skip alll the time. nd a few weeks ago, we were working on our animation video thingy aaaand Guy even helped us fixing the computer and he gave us his USB thingy to use and. omg. so sweeet. den he jz asked us bout...things.

then a few days ago, i had to do my metal/glass carving...and i cudn do it right...so he helped me for like the whole block. and he hugged me while i was trying to get terracota clay.

ew. i cannot b falling for my own senior bully friend. WELLLLLLL, i ges i can ;)

hez da one inviting me to go to da After Grad party!!! wee.

love is my battlefield.

wow hvent updated here in a while. well lets see wat has been goin on since i last updated. dumped shervin, gt bk together wid royce, prom, loads of late night outs wid...ppl., met ppl frm da brit and french skul,,,,,,,drinking mostly.......1am-3am phone calls wid royce....or 4am-6am phone calls wid him.....blah blah.....boring classes. lots of homework, etc. gettin realy friendlier wid shervin nd richard........crystal (my worst enemy nd whos in love wid my bf...wel now my EX bf royce) started a fucking rumour again. so

wel. ok so i gt cheated on. all my fault AGAIN.

i plan to stay single fr da rest of my life. i dnt think ill ever be able to love again. nt after dis. my hearts seriously broken. i wanna die. thank god i hv zee nd aarushi.

royce- dnt hv mch to say to u. u did wt u did nd no matter hw mch u try, i wont ever be able to frget it. i may frgive u, bt frgetting it...no way. i hate u fr wt u did. nd fr trusting crys of ol ppl. i wud never cheat on u nd i cant bliev ud blive her jz cz i was talkin to my ex nd richard more. u hav seriously ruined my life. u hv made me feel lyk scum nd uve scarred me fr lyf. u made me blieve dat it was worth it. to giv my heart away over a distance nd to wait. waste of time. my whole future nd everythin u planned fr us...datz ol over. we will NEVER be 'US' ever again. my arms r cut cz of u nd if dey leave a mark, den good cz i never wanna frget wt u did. wel. we almost made it. 3 more weeks nd i wudv been der.

u cn go to da states fr college nw. since u dnt hv to stay fr me. i think datz da sweetest thing. to take a year off nd wait fr me. bt nw u hv ntn to wait fr . so jz leave. i dnt wanna deal wid u once im living der. nd thank god ill b in brent. in laguna or smthn far frm u.

omg. prom was fun!!!!!!!! danced lyk ALLLLLL NYT. both fast nd slow songs. :) was fun fun fun.

royce called before it, kinda during it to see how i was nd after it. my song wid him played "i dnt wanna miss a thing"...nd i ddnt wanna dance it wid anyone else so i went bk to our table nd ate icecream. den coincidentally, he called. so happy.

after da actual prom, he called again. nd...yea :)

da afterprom was fun. bt zee, wan nd i realy wanted to go to da OTHER after prom. :( oh wel. gross boobsqueezer. hung out a lot of wid everyone including shervin. i ges we'r gettin along agin. bt was wid erin, nir, blake, gini, etc. a lot of da time.

ddnt get ANY sleep. da prom went from 7-12 midnight. nd da AFTER prom party went from 12 midnight - 6:30 am!!

nd sm ppl had to pay 500 to get in. hw lame. bt i ddnt cz zwe nd aleen da hosts gave me my invitation a week prior to it. has my name nd little number on it ;) hehehehe

well wt else. ROYCE called during it...or actually. no, he called AFTER wen everyone was already dead on the ground. aaaaand he got kinda pissy at me ofocurse. since i went with GUY DRAPER nd stayed wid him and hajo da whole time. plus i ended up telling royce dt i almost hooked up wid..either guy or hajo. bleh.

it was just. FUN

okay well im not single anymore. gt back togeder wid royce over da phone. seriously long distance is so weird in dat sense. bt im seeing him in lyk a little over a month so...itz..worth it ;)

if not fr dating shervin, royce cudve visited over spring break!!! bt it takes so long to get an indian visa in manila........sO........darn. bt skuls over fr HIM...nd my baby graduated top of his class DESPITE skippin months nd months of skul. cz hes so smart :) bt he'll be busy doing make-up wokr over HIS summer. oh well.

so yea. attached again. i missed royceee so tres tres mch. wel aside frm da gijun thing. jz over my boring relationship wid shervin.

cant wait to seeeeee him over da summer.

oh yesterday was shervins 16th bday. hahaha. nd royce was online nd tld him bout gettin bk togeder soooo im pretty sure shervins gna get back at me nd go fr someone lyk..kaly, nihar nd gayatri. der was da Luau at acsa. so ..yea he prbbly went der nd celebrated his birthday.

school again. last nyt shervin called saying he'd be der early nd dat i shud look at my locker.

so gt to skul nd hugggggged zee fr sooo long cz i missed her. nd i realized shervin was across da courtyard lookin all emoish nd jz staring. wt a creep.

so i tld zee about wt shervin said on d phone nd tld HER to pull my locker open. so she did. nd close it ryt bk nd said "omg. itz lyk a museum in der. u shud see it"

so she opened it again. nd my locker was covered wid...presents frm shervin. so weird. lyk da top part had a bunch of stuffed animals...da bottom part had wrapped boxes nd letters nd cards nd stuff.

omg. nd da side had dis picture frame thing dat he DREW! hahaha. nd da drawing he drew looked NTN lyk me.

da letter was sooo...LONG nd descriptive. it explained everythin. and all that 'take me back' crap nd 'make me feel lyk da luckiest dude in da world again'.

yea ryt like im gonna fall fr that. so i saw him during french wen i went out of class to rehearse da 7minute memorised oral. he came nd talked. nd i said "thanks fr da stuff. bt i cant keep any of it. cz staying wid u jz cz of da letter nd wt u said nd ol da presents wud b wrong. my feelings fr u are ol gone nd dried up. honestly i ddunno if dey were ever real cz i stil loved someone right before being wid u. i think we shud jz...stay as normal ppl." YEA. so. single single. annoying bt id rather be single dan stay wid him.

went to watch the pacififer today with itja, ananda, and their frend. it was sooooo cute nd funny! wel atleast my mom let me go out since im 'grounded'.

wtever dat means. she stil lets me go out nd shop jz as long as im nt staying out late or meetin up wid any close frends! hahaha!

wel its my birthday today. shervin nd i OFFICALLY broke up today. wel yesterday we olredi argued nd i already mentioned it bt it wasnt official. we jz ddnt realy talk da whole day. excet\pt online wen he startde saying how i havent learned how to love him nd i cant realy take our so-called relationship seriously. nd since royce was finaly online nd we hvnt spoken since lyk DECEMBER...he felt threatend. bt he nmd royce still talked.

but wtever. so im single again. no heartbreak :) talkin to royce now. hmm. missed talkin to him. his site is sooooo sweeeeet cz it has ol these pics nd bday stuf! also aarushis, fatimas, hajos, jess', jimmys, etc. aw. so sweet. bt i dnt feel older.